missXmissy's Xanga

Sunday, December 19, 2004

Sun, 19 Dec 2004 07:29:22 GMT

ITS WINTER BREAK! YAYAYAYAY!

also.. my xanga is going to take a break. like it was doing anyway.

i quit for now.

Sunday, November 21, 2004

Sun, 21 Nov 2004 08:37:48 GMT

HAHA. so i post again. surprise.

much has happened since i last posted.. went to sadies, st. louis, blah blah blah... so i'll post some pictures. i like how i stop writing and just post pictures. its the lazy way out. and probably.. more.. pleasing to your eyes? whatever.

...also, i suck at college apps. the UC apps are due on the 30th of this month and i have yet to start on my essays. SHIT. meaning, i'm already waiting for my letters of rejection.

so here are some pictures from sadies, which consisted of the group eating at northside nathan's, playing pool at poolsharks, trampolines and foampits at flyers, then driving aimlessly in the desert to start a bonfire (which didn't happen bc the place we planned to have it at was blocked off), then going to danica's to watch a movie we ended up not watching, but despite all the shitty things, i had a great time. MIKE IS AWESOME <3

so all these pictures are stolen from mike. i would post more, but who really wants to see pictures of me jumping on a trampoline like an idiot?

AND.. st. louis. if you're wondering why i was there, it was for a NHS conference. i felt really cool when i was there, because basically everyone that was there looked like minkis (sp?) from "boy meets world"

HAHAHA I LOVE THEM. yay strip show.

Monday, November 01, 2004

Mon, 01 Nov 2004 21:50:15 GMT

mmm. halloween. kind of sad to know that it was my last here in vegas... since next year i'll be off in college where ever the hell i choose to go.

saturday was much more fun that actual halloween was. i actually dressed up.. as what? sXe bitches. i'm sorry if you're offended. don't hurt us.. it was funny. i highly doubt my xanga is read by many sXe kids.. but still i will only post one picture... FYI: WE'RE JUST KIDDING.

HA. so then sunday i took my little brother and 895403 little cousins trick or treating, and in the process i lost my cell phone. then i just got really pissed off... but i found it an hour later when someone picked it up. then, i ate all my little brothers candy. he was a little bumble bee and he hated his costume. i wont show pictures of that because i look horrible and he.. isn't looking at the camera.

it's also extremely cold and my mom won't let me turn on the heater. so i dressed myself like an eskimo =)

...that boy, that ordinary boy, wasn't all in my head.

Saturday, October 30, 2004

Sat, 30 Oct 2004 04:36:37 GMT

yay a post. finally.

first off let me tell you that i'm so glad we have a four day weekend. one day down and three to go. but i really needed it. i've been stressing too much, crying too much, and not having enough sleep/fun.. too much. also, I got an A in calculus, so the day was grand.

so sadies is next saturday. i don't particularly feel like commenting on that at this moment.

and basically my dad thinks i'm the shittiest daughter ever. i wonder who put those thoughts into his head.. jfskdljamarryannajfkda!! i assume its partly my fault for not visiting him enough. but sometimes i really cant stand that bitch. she's quite possibly the biggest ignoramous in the world. but i really do miss my brother. i have a huge dread of him growing up without me, and i want to be able to be there for him, but with college i know i cant be at his side. and the "new" brother that's due in december, i'm just kind of resentful about. Consider this: my dad is nearly 55 and works hard, isn't exactly in perfect health, and they always seem to be tight on money. WHY NOT HAVE ANOTHER BABY?! they don't seem to understand that they will have to eventually buy cars, insurance, and send these kids to college. its not just simply having a baby. and i can foresee them having another one because marry ann isn't content with having all boys. IT HAS TO BE A GIRL. what the fuck am i? apparently, not part of the family. oh disownage. i loved my dad most out of all of my.. four parents? however, when my dad doesn't love me anymore, there's something wrong with the world. thinking about it makes me cry. like right now.

but i guess there's other things attributing to the tears that i don't feel like talking about at the moment. maybe i'm being foolish. i'm just so convinced of my own cynicism. oh boys, somethings bound to go wrong.

tomorrow.. em and danica's halloween party. YAY! never back down.

somebody explain to me the concept of nevada day. what the hell is its significance? do other states have like.. "oregon day" and the kids dont have to go to school?! i think its a dumb excuse for a holiday. but at least i have no school.

also.. i really like how i only write in my xanga when i'm completely pissed off. i'm not suicidal, i promise. only depressed, sometimes and i have deduced that the world is full of fools. myself included, but shit, that's life.

my mom comes home from china tomorrow. back to hell for me.

...you've got your gun to my head.

Monday, October 04, 2004

Mon, 04 Oct 2004 04:29:51 GMT

So last night was homecoming, the best one i've been too. it was TIGHT and I had mucho fun.

also.. i will edit with more details about it later.

but for now.. pictures shall suffice.

__EDIT__
I like how now the pictures don't work because the host is LAME. But I'll continue on with my.. story? so homecoming.

That morning.. Robbie woke me up and picked me up and we met the rest of the group and Mountain Crest park.. then we began our scavenger hunt! (FYI: everything we did was a surprise!) Jake and.. Jake loaded up the explorer with us girls, while the rest of the guys went to.. do something? we had our first clue.. each clue led us to someone's house and someone there would give us a new one.. then the final clue landed us at IHOP for breakfast! bwuahhaah. then.. i went home.

Out of nowhere my stepdad was like.. "you're tires need air." So even though I kept telling him i needed time to get ready, he made me go to City Auto to get stupid air in my tires. Then I picked up Robbie's bouttonierre (jfklsadjslda; however you spell it. boot-an-ear fuhhhh), which turned out TIGHT.

I took a shower and got ready.. then watched the goonies because I am cool.

Robbie picked me up and we went to this mormon kids ginormous house, equipped with.. 289301289301 mormon people. and me...

There, we took 33432 pictures and then we had an awesome dinner. It was better than I expected.. very TIGHT. we had these sorbet things for desert, and the sorbet was filled in half fruits (i.e. orange sorbet in an orange.. ) and they were YUM.

We went to the dance for like.. negative 30 minutes. 25 of those minutes were spent waiting in line to take pictures.. then we danced. ONCE.

We rushed from there.. to the Monte Carlo, to watch Lance Burton. Even though I've seen that show 4 times.. it was still tight. After the show we walked on the strip.. we were supposed to record it.. but the camera didn't work so after a while we just left. Then I went home.. and crashed into my bed.

GOOD STORY RIGHT? i thought so. now if only my pictures would work again. for some reason.. they work one at a time. randomly.

we're pimp.

i like how i dont stand up straight.

GANGSTAHHHH!!!

Saturday, September 18, 2004

Sat, 18 Sep 2004 04:25:14 GMT

wwehriown! so last night i stayed up to finish the stupid hawthorne packet instead of studying for the psych test. way to prioritize.. bc by the time i finished the packet i was like.. uguhguhhuhg i'm sleepy. i told myself that i would wake up early and study.. but then.. i woke up late and i had to race to school which was bad.

so then.. whatever good thing the test was pretty easy anyway. and then.. someone stole mr barry's turtle!!! IT WAS SAD. if you guys know about me and turtles.. i feel for him. WHO THE HELL WOULD STEAL A TURTLE OUT OF HIS TANK!!!! that's horrible. i bet you it was a stupid freshman. poor turtle. i hope he doesn't DIE in someone's backpack or backpocket.

also.. yay i'm going to homecoming with the best king, robbie king. YOU GUYS BOOZLED ME IN THE FACEEEEE. TOTALLY. at least i'm not going to hide in my room and cry during homecoming, so i suppose the whole world isn't conspiring against me like i though.. only most of it.

i also think that.. i'm such a bitch! poo. oops.

... you're afraid, 'cause she's got closer

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

Wed, 15 Sep 2004 21:20:00 GMT

i know you all love this newness. if only i posted once in a.. month.

so.. three weeks into senior year and.. BALLFACE. going back only reminded me of how much i hate high school and practically everyone there. except for the people i know and love. i know a lot of people... but i dont love them all...

however..it IS frikkin senior year. only.. eight and half months to go until graduation! YAYYY. having five classes is YAYness as well because i have less homework.. and more time to do whatever. i wanna rock this year. HARD.

...but there IS still school and the work that goes along with it.. bastards. besides calculus.. everything is fine. calculus seems to be the bitch class out of all my classes.. meaning its going to kill me. also, does anyone know where i can find a good calc tutor?

besides school everything else is alright. my mom has kind of been an ass lately. everything she says to me is critical or accusational. never optimistic... and she wonders why i want to leave so bad. although i'm still lost in my life and i dont know what i'm going to do with it.. the one thing i'm sure about is going away for school. i can only take so much from her. and my other.. parents. fjkdsjalkf;a marry ann jwerionga!

i know thats all i ever complain about.. but it really does bother me. they only shoot me down and no one's there to pick me up.

but besides all that i still really miss the summer. this past summer has been one of the best summers i've ever experienced. thinking about it makes me happy <3

..once she's got you in her sight, you're the one she's after.

Monday, August 23, 2004

Mon, 23 Aug 2004 06:24:35 GMT

WHAT THE F KIDS! what has the world come to.. nicky hilton is married. and britney spears is engaged to a poor back-up dancer with two children and a nagging ex-wife. sigh. all these kids marrying young.

it makes me want to get up tomorrow and go look for a husband. get married. have a child and further populate the overpopulated world. get divorced so my child will live a broken life. ah that's the life. (hopefully you know.. i'm being sarcastic...)

strange thing is.. i used to think i would marry young and live in a house with a white picket fence and ALL THAT.. but my views have totally taken a 360. for instance.. i don't even know if i want or even will get married. i guess my own family has led me to believe that marriage is a curse. and that love is a curse. oh how dysfunctional.

ha. enough of my deep thoughts... where's the real crap right?! you wanna know what i've been up to (but really, you don't care.). my relatives from cali have been in town for the past week.. so i've been playing miss taxi driver. a bad taxi driver, might i add, bc i dont know how to get anywhere, nor can i drive in the rain. however... I LOVE LOVE LOVE the rain. dancing in it. watching it from my window...

also... we threw my grandma a surprise birthday party. and indeed.. she was surprised. ¢¾

my cousin charlize is the cutest ever. she drools a lot though.

so i decided my xanga is lame bc no one reads it anymore thats okay. i wouldn't care about my life either..bwuahaha. bleghhhueioruoqning. goodnite dearies!

...wouldn't it be great if they would understand us?

Sunday, August 15, 2004

Sun, 15 Aug 2004 07:43:58 GMT

okay so basically i totally lied about the fact that i was going to stop pursuing. right now i'm so confused as to where my heart is.. and where it belongs.. or should i say.. to whom it belongs. so for a year nothing good came my way (or actually.. if it did i pushed it away because of my own promise to myself...) and now there's too many good things and i cant decide which one i want. and when i say things, i mean romantic interests, meaning.. dumb boys. i want to have everything but there's only one problem: i can't. so clearly, i know i have a problem but i dont know how to solve it, and when i think i DO have the solution, i don't want to give anything up. i suppose i should just drag things out a little longer. i mean, i've dragged it out long enough already.. why not keep going?

okay so i think this entry only made sense to me, and myself. but it did feel better to write down what was jumbled in my wee little mind. AH. relief

...please walk away and let me go // i can't my darling i love you so.

Tuesday, August 10, 2004

Tue, 10 Aug 2004 05:23:13 GMT

YAY A CAR!!! YAY A CAR!!! YAY A CAR!!! YAY A CAR!!! YAY A CAR!!! YAY A CAR!!! YAY A CAR!!! YAY A CAR!!! YAY A CAR!!! YAY A CAR!!! YAY A CAR!!! YAY A CAR!!! YAY A CAR!!! YAY A CAR!!! YAY A CAR!!! YAY A CAR!!! YAY A CAR!!! YAY A CAR!!!

okay i'm done. enough of that.

YAY A CAR!!!

so i've decided i've reached a dead end and i should stop pursuing. (you're thinking.. what the F? but those of you who know what i'm talking about.. yay for you.)

YAY A CAR!!!

...it was fun but it couldn't last forever/bye bye pretty boyfriend.
(oh fefe dobson why is this my favorite song.)